Venting...

So, J^2 came to Fort Wayne last week. He got here on Wednesday, and his cousin picked him up from the airport. (He asked me to pick him up weeks ago, but he told me a couple of days before he was coming that his cousin was going to, because he felt only right doing that because she bought his ticket, whatever). So then, on Thursday, after my game, I called him, he said he was getting ready to go and get a rental car, I offered to take him, he said by cousin is going to take me now. He calls me two hours later, wanting to come over, so I say sure, give him directions and all. 30 minutes later, I haven't heard from him (it about 25 minutes to get EVERYWHERE here), he was supposed to call me once he got about 10 minutes from where he was. So, I call, he is still at his cousins house, I say, if you don't leave in 15, call me, I wake up at 5:40 for work, it's 10:30 p.m. now. So he calls at 10:40, says he's on his way. I call back at 11, he still hasn't left. So I just tell him I'll get with him on Friday. So, we go to lunch on Friday, we basically get into it at lunch. Friday evening comes, we go back and forth trying to get together, then finally, at midnight he wants to come over. Nah pimping. Then, he calls me at 8 the next morning, and by this time I am just tired of the entire situation, but I don't say anything at first. He asks me what I'm doing on Saturday, I say nothing, thinking that he's going to try and make some plans with me, but no, never happens. So I say you know what, you are full of s**t. You make all these dreamy promises to me on the phone, and then you get here and it's nothing of the sort. But it's all good, I see it for what it is. He says, I was going to spend today with you. Well then why did you try and make plans with me? Long story short, I'm done.

I just don't understand why dudes continuously try to play me like I'm a fool. I just don't get it. I am not going to pretend like I'm good if I'm upset about something, does that make me crazy? I'm not going to bite my tongue just to keep the peace, does that make me an angry black woman? I feel that in a relationship, I should be able to speak on how I feel. Because if I hold it in, when it finally does come out, I'll be fed up to the point of giving up, and there won't be any point in continuing. Is it too much to ask to be able to communicate to the person that you are dating? Silly me, I guess I'm just supposed to be happy with each and every little thing and take what some man is giving me instead of expecting more. I understand I may not get it, but I can't even request it? That's just crazy.

Will it ever end...

So, last week, we decided to have practice early yesterday because varsity had a game. Well, I rush to get there around 4, and no girls are in the gym. The freshmen assistant told me that the head coach told her they changed it and our girls were going to study table. I never said anything about the girls going to study table. In fact, I asked if they had to go, so that we could get out of practice early. It just never ends with her.

Oh well, The Rose Man sent me a text telling me he enjoyed talking to me on Sunday. I replied with the same and told him that I'm looking forward to talking to him again. We'll see how it goes if and when he calls. He works from 3 - 11, so I can appreciate him not calling me when he got off of work last night. I was a little bit disappointed, but I understand. I assume he was being considerate. Unless there is a reason why he couldn't call me. Who knows...

I didn't call J^2 yesterday until after practice, and I think that surprised him. I was thinking, we get into it when I call and you don't answer, so I'm just not going to call when I think you are sleep. Works better for me anyway.

I found out that the reason my internet at home isn't working is because I have a bum modem. So, I'm going to get a new one from LD this evening and try that one. I think I'm going to play volleyball tonight as well.

The Rose Man...

So, I'm going to call the guy that is now showing interest in me the Rose Man...

I've known him since I was about 12 or 13. He's 30. And for the first time in a long time, we actually had a conversation. He actually has goals, and has his stuff together. He's a supervisor at a factory, and he's been there for 10 years. He didn't graduate from college, but he's been working, since he was 20. He said some things to me on Sunday night that really peaked my interest...

"If we start kicking it, I'll be ready to marry you, because you have it together."
"I liked you back in the day, but you were just too young."
"I want to buy a house soon."
"I don't have any children, because I have my own birth control."

Now these are just a few things that I can recall at this moment. But he is definitely on the right track. I never really thought he liked me like that. We were sitting in the club talking, and he bought me a rose. Now, the lady selling them put him on the spot, but he still didn't have to buy it.

The young thing, now doesn't matter, but when were younger, he was like 17 or 18, and I was 13. At the time, I was too young to be having a relationship with him, even though I may not have thought that.

I don't know what may come of it, but I want to find out.